Monday, April 23, 2018

The Doddery


The Doddery resides in a shack on the banks of the Superannuated River. It is not a creature of solitude, yet it lives in a perpetual state of lonesomeness. The low, constant murmur that emanates from its mouth is drowned out only by the wheezing and snorting that escapes its nose, intermittently. None of these noises however, compare to the deafening silence that accompanies the Doddery’s vacant stare. Whether in a state of motion or eerily still, the milky white eyes, clouded by cataracts force you to look away, yet mesmerize you to maintain a gruesome-feeling eye contact. The gnarled hands of this monster abruptly grasp the poor soul that manages to come too close. The Doddery moves as slow as a sloth but as methodically as a cheetah stalking its prey, and if one doesn’t watch his step, the painful shuffle may feel like a high speed chase. If the Doddery does manage to catch you, you may not remember your past life. You will be forced to adopt his ways. Once he catches you, there is no turning back. Be warned. There is a peculiar scent that accompanies this beast at all times. It is difficult to pinpoint exactly what it resembles, it is perhaps urine mixed with a fishbones and just a hint of mothballs, but any unfortunate soul that takes a whiff will know it immediately, and the dread that accompanies it will begin to slither up his spine.
I know this because I have been that unfortunate soul. I was immune to the monster in the throes of my youth but as I have begun to understand, the true dread that accompanies this most terrifying of beasts only assaults one’s senses later on in life. There is but one person who has managed to escape the fear of the Doddery and if you hope to as well, you must heed his word. I am on my own journey find the Fountain of Youth.

Sunday, April 15, 2018

Carnival

Delighted laughter
Dollar! Always a winner!
Oh Man! Not this time

One hour from here
Screams from those who go before
Fasten seatbelt. AAAAAHHHH!

I hate you. Hate you
Eyes widen. Didn't mean that
Sob. It's just a ride

Colors fill the sky
Eyes staring straight up. Boom! Boom!
Vanish in seconds

Eyelids droop, yawning
Balloon animal in hand
Stomach full. Mind awake

Tuesday, April 10, 2018

HELP WANTED

You’ve been there since the beginning
Nepotism, I guess they’d call it
No application or interview required
The job was yours
Sight unseen
After 20 years, you must be an expert in your field
Right?

The Perfect Child
At least, that’s what you’d expect your title to be
At this point
You haven’t been told anything to the contrary

And then you get married
And you realize that maybe
Just maybe
You’re not perfect
And perhaps a bit ungrateful
But you’re not that bad
Right?
You did your chores
When you were reminded
Pleaded with
Threatened

And then you have a child
Of your own
And you begin to realize
The position
You believe you earned
When in reality
You were gifted it

Slowly it dawns on you

You should have been fired years ago

Yet, you never got a termination notice
Or meetings warning you
Of all the ways you could improve

You just coasted

Your feeble "thank you’s" didn’t even scratch the surface

But how could they?

And then you have a baby
And realize
There are infinite more things to thank for
Sowing the earth
watering the seeds
nights when the bed goes uncrumpled
textbooks dutifully stacked
with the words needed to get through the day.
All before you even had a memory
And were able to thank them

But hey
That’s love for you
Unconditional

From the first moment
You were awarded tenure
Never a second thought

Better late then never
That’s what they say
Right?

Thanks Mom and Dad

Sunday, April 1, 2018

Surprise (Inspired by Rudy Francisco)


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December 31st was a Saturday
The year I was in 10th grade

Cupcakes with pink frosting and balloons shouting cliches
Wrapped gifts and colorful streamers
Always filled the classroom

But what happens when it’s on a weekend?
When you’re not going to see your friends
Until the moment has passed?

I thought I was popular
I thought I had a lot of friends
I had baked the requisite brownies
And bought the expected gifts

Friday came
And went

No balloons
No cake
No presents

“Shoshana!”
I turn expectantly
“Isn’t it your birthday tomorrow?”
“It is”
“I just realized”

Cool

Home
A safe haven
No rejection
Until I see my brother
But, hey, that's what family is for

Sunday came
No texts blowing up my phone
Had I misjudged so grossly

Mom kept asking if I needed to study
What did it matter?
I was a straight A student
She needn’t worry

Dad asked me to go shopping
For a gift
For my mom

Despondent, I agreed

We didn’t buy anything
We returned home empty handed

Mom called me to the basement
As if there was a tornado
wreaking havoc
In New York
In the Winter

But we listen to our mothers

SURPRISE
My sister sprays me with something
I stop breathing

My mouth is gaping
My eyes are glassy
Hand clutching my chest
My friends hadn’t forgotten
And I had even more then I thought

Some get a classroom filled with balloons
I got a surprise sweet sixteen soiree
And a memory that will last
longer then cupcakes and balloons